Change

"The reason people find it so hard to be happy is that they always see the past better than it was, the present worse than it is, and the future less resolved than it will be."

- Marcel Pagnol

My best friend had a little girl last week!

His life will never, ever be the same.

Just think about what he had to face!
Adam had to open his soul - all the way - for that little arrival.

I needed to make a few changes myself -

[Hm ... it feels a little strange, writing about this baby's effect on my life.
And to write about it here, especially ... in a forum that maybe only Adam himself really reads ...
Yeah, strange.
But she had an effect.
Nearly no effect at all, when compared to the impact she's had on her parents -
But she did change me - and I want to express that. :)]

I, too, needed to open my soul (if only a crack).

And I needed to remember how to be a friend to a kid. :D

But her biggest impact on me?
I needed to let go of my friendship ... with Adam.

Oh, he's still my best friend.
And I like to think that I'm still his.

But I'm no longer a priority, you see.
An absentee best friend to a father is really more of an accessory. :S

You know, I was REALLY close to my middle school friends.
I've heard it said that a family is a circle of love.
If that's true, then that's what we were. A family.
[Ours was a brotherly, rough-housing kind of love.]

But we had to graduate. We had to seperate.
We had to move on.

And we all grew for it!

I found another group of friends. I found for myself ANOTHER family. I got lucky.
But again, another graduation ...

That's what Serah's birth was for me, really.
Adam was "going off to college".

Yeah. I'll still see him. Heck, maybe I'll even see MORE of him -
But our relationship will be weaker, won't it?
Stronger as brothers, maybe - for the sharing of the love of a child.

But weaker as friends.

This is NOT self-pity.
I'm happy for him.

Curiously, I'm happy for myself:

I don't think I need Adam's shoulder for support any longer -
My legs have healed.
I can walk, and soon I'll run -

I'm ready to look for my fourth (and final?) family.